Memories to charish

There are so many memories that I charish in my heart. When I heard about the wild fires in Pigeon Forge, TN today, my heart was taken back to August 1, 2009. We left our wedding and went to our trailer and got our things. We went into the bedroom to change clothes and I remember my husband looking at me and saying " They know we are in here together." It still makes me laugh. He was so comical about things like that. We left our family at our trailer and left for our honeymoon. We arrived in Pigeon Forge, TN and stopped at Wendy's to get some supper. We then went to our cabin rental to check in and get directions to our cabin. When we got to our cabin, there were a dozen roses on the table and a red heart shaped tub in the corner. That was the best week of my life. We enjoyed every minute of that trip. We went to splash country, dollywood, the cove, and Gatlenburg. We went back there for our first and second Anniversary. I wanted to go back for our third, but he would not go because I would be so pregnant. It will be hard to go back there. There are so many memories like that that I will always remember.

Some friends and I rescued some horses this weekend and it was bittersweet, since horses was something special that me and my husband shared. He loved horses and was great with them. He shoed horses, rodeoed, roped, and would ride anything that no one would. He was fearless and me and his mother called him " A rolling party." I have never known anyone that enjoyed life as much as he did. I would love to live life that way and to show our son how his daddy lived his life. My wish is that our son will grow up and say that he knows all about his daddy and that his mother told him all about him. I wish for him to grow up and say that my mom didn't give up and she stayed strong for me. I want him to grow up and be proud of me and have a special love for God. I want to raise him in a way that will be honoring to God and his daddy. I know that one day we will get to be the family that we never got to be on earth. I can't wait for that day, but until then the future scares me. I do not know what the future holds. I just pray that God will not give me more than I can handle. I just want to get through the next few months. I kow God will give me the strength to get through this, as he has the past 8 months.
To my love, best friend, lover, my everything, and my husband, I love you and miss you so much. I wish you were here with my and your son. I think about you every second of the day and my heart longs for you. There will always be a huge piece missing that I will not get back, until we meet again. Your son is beautiful and full of your personallity. I love you and miss you baby. Until we meet again, in the clouds above the sky!!